Monday, April 30, 2012

The Angel of Responsibility

The Angel of Responsibility has been a recurring theme for me.  A few weeks ago when I first selected this angel card at random, I felt a heaviness as if I'd been remiss about something.  Then, I remembered another definition for responsibility:  the ability to respond. 

My Course in Miracles card was a perfect companion with the Angel of Responsibility, also chosen at random at our Miracles meeting that day:

  "Your holy mind establishes everything that happens to you.  Every response you make to everything you perceive is up to you, because your mind determines your perception of it."

I looked up the paragraph referenced in The Course. It too had responsibility

"Nothing beyond yourself can make you fearful or loving, because nothing is beyond you.  Time and eternity are both in your mind and will conflict until you perceive time solely as a means to regain eternity.  You cannot do this as long as you believe that anything happening to you is caused by factors outside yourself.  You must learn that time is solely at your disposal, and that nothing in the world can take this responsibility from you.  You can violate God's laws in your imagination, but you cannot escape from them.  They were established for your protection..." (A Course in Miracles, Chapter 10)

I can be slow on the uptake at times , so Responsibility came up in an amusing way a short time later.  Our cat, Angel, was laying down on top the new printer by my desk watching me work at the computer.  Somehow she hit the copy button.  The printer buzzed.  PING!  A picture of The Angel of Responsibility card popped out in the paper tray!

I had to laugh as I'd tried to scan the card for an angel blog several days ago but it didn't work.  I forgot about the Angel of Responsibility and had left her on the print screen. My little cat had turned out to be a real copy cat. 

With the Angel of Responsibility out on my desk, I was thinking about being responsible for my upcoming trip to Virginia to move Mom to Florida.  The ability to respond...

There were obstacles after packing her apartment. Moving contracts not honored, terms changed. Confusion in delivery dates.  The whole move fell apart on Saturday when the truck showed up.  Instead of the contracted truck, it was a satellite truck, heading for Florida via New York, with different stipulations.

 A move can be stressful at any age, but my 93-year old Mom made the best of it; her first move in 17 years.  We sent the truck away, hoping to get the issue resolved on Monday morning. The company claimed it was a dispatcher's error.

Sunday morning, we happened to catch a TV minister talk on Overcoming Anxiety. It was just the message we needed. He said, God doesn't want us living with anxiety.  Sometimes it is warranted, but it is not meant to be a daily way of life. Scriptures tells us time and again, to not be anxious.  A solution to anxiety, he said, is to surrender the problem to God, remembering in gratitude that God is Love, and we are made in His image and likeness. Love is the answer.

The key to problem solving, he went on,  is after expressing thankfulness for Who God is, and who we are, open our hands and give the problem to Him, whatever it is. And, let Him give you His peace in exchange for it. When this is done in earnest, a buffer of peace will enfold us that transcends human understanding.

So, Sunday night before going to bed at the guest quarters in her retirement community, I prayed for help with the move.  A peacefulness settled over me.  God was in control.  This was not His plan for us.   Our airline tickets had been cancelled at our expense, the apartment packed. Mom and I were both sharing a room with no idea when or how her furniture would arrive in Florida.  Parameters were narrow as an 18-wheeler couldn't make deliveries at her new retirement community.

On Monday, I knew action was needed.  The moving company didn't return my calls.  Before searching the yellow pages, I asked the Holy Spirit for help in finding the right mover.

I hit upon Sterling Van Lines.  Calling the number, the owner answered and listened to our problem.  He asked my Mom's name.

 Mary Luckie, I  told him, laughing. 

 "Well, she may have not been lucky on Saturday, but the Lord is at work in her life." 

"Amen," I laughed, feeling tons lighter.  He could have a truck pick up her stuff the following day and deliver it down to Florida the day after. He personally did an expedite. Mom's belongings arrived at her new apartment before she did.  Heavy snow hit up north, no telling when her things may have arrived via New York with the first mover.  The Angel of Responsibility had helped me to listen and then take action. I'm so thankful for all the spiritual support.

 "Your holy mind establishes everything that happens to you.
  Every response you make to everything you perceive is up to
 you, because your mind determines your perception of it."
                                 --A Course in Miracles

Joyful blessings,

Rae Karen